Retiring From FF XI

Okay, Okay, I know that it may not be the greatest thing I can do to air dirty laundry on here, but I've spent more time on this game with some of you then I've known some of my friends currently. A bit heated last night, I made it known that I'm leaving the game. After 5 years of playing, the game just isn't fun anymore. How can it be when the person I love is running around with somone else on the game. This isn't the first time or even the second. Hell, I wish I could say it was the third, but there has been several smaller incidents along the way. Infact, there is at least one member in the linkshell that has been one of those smaller instances. And, like the love-struck moron that I am I put up with it, tolerated it, and took her back everytime. I'm a fool and an idiot for doing so; I have always been so for her, and have no one to blame but myself. However, I have gotten inqueries from people in the game and in the linkshell because Dru likes to play the victim card and thrives on pity from both men and woman. She craves their attention, and I'm tired of living the role as the bad guy. Most of what she has put out there about her life at home are grossly exagerated, and she omits the cruel and evil things she did to cause certain situations she finds herself in. I'm not trying to turn this onto a "Let's shit on Dru!" message. She can be a real amzing person when she wants to, but she does have a huge tendancy to use people ,espeacialy on FF, for her own purposes and just toss them aside at a whim for for no reason when she has decided she's done with them. Ask Alyea if you need confirmation on that. Two years ago, about, Dru and I hit a real rough patch, mainly because we weren't comunicating, and she left me for someone she met in the game. Fair enough, but she abandend me and our daughter in preperations to move across the country to be with him, knowing he was married. He wouldn't have her however, and she came back to me begging for us to try again, all the while reminding me that the only reason she wanted me back was because the other guy wouldn't have her, not because she wanted me instead. I sucked up all my pride and ego, and took her back only to have her leave me again 2 months later for someone else she met on the game, this time in Canada. I begged and pleaded with her not to, felt like dieing and was literally imobile and vomiting blood sick over it. I don't believe I have ever felt so empty inside in my entire life, and felt so ashamed that I was niave enough to believe we could work. I lived with it, and finally began to move on. It wasn't until I met someone and began to sleep with her that Dru did a complete 180, telling everyone that I had cheated on her. It may well have felt like I had, since it had been the first time in the nine years I had met someone that could make me forget about Dru enough to risk losing her from my life. However, she still was seeing her man in Canada, so I'd say we were both to blame. I gave up the girl I had met for Dru in hopes that we could attempt a fresh start, but I still have a lot of hang-ups and hurt feelings that I have yet to get over; It's agood thing I do to, because a few months later we're here once again. she's found someone else on here that she's left me for, because she's not willing to work with me to get me over my issues I still have because it's taking too long. Again, I'm not trying to get back at Dru by posting this, or even try and make her look bad. I'm just trying to put myself in a better light to those that she has tainted my image to. All I do is work a lot, drink beer with friends, and play this game: and all I want is someone who helps around the house, is good to my daughter, and lets me drink beer with my friends. I guess that's not her.

All that aside, I love playing FF, and playing with you guys. But, I have to run around the game thats brought me so much trouble and heartache. Not only that, I have to run inot these people on a regular basis in the game as a constant reminder of it all. Not only that butI have to sit 5ft away from Dru while she plays all day flirting and laughing, and as a whole its not something I want to deal with.

However, I finished all 3 nations to rank 10, beat zilart and AU, and am now on PM 7-4. I would really love to finish PMs before I leave forever. So, who knows maybe I'll stay long enough to finish, but right now I just need time away.

I wish you all the best in everything, and thanks for the memories.

Nic

PS: if you want to reach me you can find me here - http://www.myspace.com/Alcoholic_Eyes

I'm sorry to see you go Nic/Serum. I will miss your "blessing" as you enter the linkshell. You have accomplished so much in game and as a Galka no less. Good Luck with your last missions.

Your absence will be felt, but I can understand your need to leave.

I pray Altana will bless you on your life's journey.. where ever it may lead you.
Just know that CE will be here if you ever choose to return.

I would also be very sorry to see you go Serum. Hopefully you will see while you are finishing up those last quests that you have many friends on here that don't want to see you go. By all means take a break if you want to, I think all of us have had times where we needed one, but come back to us when you are ready and rejoin the fun that is FFXI and especially CosmicEnigma.

Well dude I really never talked you but youve been playing longer then when I started but I still wish you the best and hope life goes well for you...

Well I really dont know what to say. I'll miss you and so will many more of us.
I'll miss being blessed as you enter, I'm convinced I dont get ko'd as often after a blessing lol.
I've never been one to get involved with the drama's that may arise in the game, but I hope you get to reslove the situation to some degree. I've enjoyed meeting you in game and you have always been pleasant to me and others and with that I wish you success and well being for the future. I hope our paths cross again sometime it's been almost 2 years "in may" for me in CE and you've always been a well liked and valued member to our linkshell. I hope you are still around when I return, But alas that is ultimately your decision to make

blessed be

Galen xxx